It’s,
Really hard just to sum it up in words
I tried to do good, but I couldn’t have done worse.
Should have done better, I didn’t wanna’ get hurt.
Should have left letters or something to explain but,
I couldn’t even write it in a verse…
That’s supposed to be the only way my thoughts exert.
I guess, I don’t have a valid excuse
Cause I’ve always been so mad about you.
That look in your eyes only come sin a few,
I could see you for miles when you’re coming through -
You’re on of a kind,
I would recognise,
You can’t change that smile on your face
Or the look that you give me when you’re in my arms.
I hope you forgive me for all of these scars,
I hope that you know you’re in all of my bars..
I think of you when I look up to them stars,
When I look at how far, we came
Why did I give up. I just feel so ashamed;
Feel so lame.
I pushed you to them and I know I’m to blame
But I can not pretend it didn’t kill me to hear what you did.
Now, you don’t even know what love is
I, could show you if you can forgive
I love you so much and it’s so much to give
But you’re worth that and more.
Without you I’m nothing but poor,
Nothing but a shell of what I was before
What I was with you.
When you’re at my sides there’s nothing I can’t do -
But you need to explain:
Why did it feel like you were pushing away?
At least a month before I made that mistake…
Maybe I was tripping,
But even my best friend said my mood was dipping,
I guess I was spending a lot of time thinking:
What if our love was a boat that was sinking?
Did you still love me?
Something was missing..
Imagining you while I’m sat in the kitchen,
Away for a month I didn’t think that you missed me.
Then I got high as fuck, ended up kissing a girl,
I regretted it straight away ‘cause you’re my girl -
‘Cause you’re my world.
Then I got lost in my thoughts
I pushed you away ‘cause I wanted you more?
I don’t even know how that works,
I know I can’t fit what I did with just words!
Maybe the pain is just what I deserve..
My heat has been aching,
Has been for ages
Writing about you I get so frustrated
My mind is a puzzle I grasp all the basics,
I lost the big game but I had all the Aces…
Then, I lost your heart
I always knew you were the one from the start
At least our start,
I couldn’t get used to us being apart.
Only an hour that isn’t so hard
I could hop on a train and then you’re in my arms.
Your voice is so calming,
There’s nothing better then seeing you laughing,
Taking my sweater without even asking
But I couldn’t care less.
‘Cause you’re my darling,
Been through some hard times
I left at the hardest…
Now, I want it all back,
I know I’m so selfish, I’m sorry for that.
I can only explain through these “sorry ass” raps,
I don’t understand how your love is intact -
I feel like a criminal,
Ripped out your heart then I put it back into you.
But, maybe I needed this interval
Needed this break,
To fix myself up I was digging my grave.
Pulling you down I didn’t want you to cave
Cause, you are so strong;
And you are so brave -
You tell me you’re not,
But that’s okay ‘cause I know that you are
And that won’t ever change.
You’re like my start that is guiding the way…
I could keep raping for days,
When you’re on my mind
There’s so much I could say….
Girl, I could keep rapping for days,
When you’re on my mind
There’s so much I could say….