When I try and write it’s like I fight myself,
The war inside my mind is why I’m high
I need to find myself.
I live a story only time can tell,
Eight billion people in this world
That’s more than I can help.
I’m alive and well
But still I’m close to finding hell,
The devil on my shoulder
Keeps my burning heart inside its shell.
I like to laugh it off
Acting like I’m hardly lost,
I’m still looking where the target was.
I’m sitting here my arms are crossed,
When I start thinking it gets hard to stop -
I should take my time my life is fast enough.
I’ve been really stuck up in my mind:
I’m trying to master love.
And I don’t really need to be a genius
I question life
So as to find out what the meaning is,
They don’t believe me
When I try and start to speak of it.
They don’t really want to hear the truth
But now I’m deeping it.

I keep on swimming in the deeper end,
Learning to love myself
I need to learn to keep a friend
I try to save time
But it’s a currency I need to spend.
People need love,
Me I just need a pen.
I really need to peak so I can breath again.
I’m clearly just asleep
Is this a dream I’m in?
I’m neglecting everyone that’s ever loved me

I’ve been smoking so much weed
And I’ll keep smoking until it numbs me
I’m a renegade -
Running in the hopes of finding better days
I, fous on these verses and the role that every letter plays.
This is how I’ll do it
I don’t care if there’s a “better way”,
I keep reducing the illusions of a better place.
I seize the moment
I squeeze it and see it glowing
it seems that I keep on going
I’m seeking a deeper notion.
The deepest oceans are clearer than my emotions
I’m blind when my eyes are open
I’m higher than I had noticed.

Wrong decisions are the chance to find a better me.
I love my music, love my self
A love that never sleeps.
I hate the truth in all the things hat I could never be -
But I refuse to be a victim of my memories.